Strange days

This is a very strange time for me.  When you work for the same company from your 20's all the way into your 50's, chances are you aren't the type to pick up and go somewhere else.  And really?  I never thought I would.  Sometimes there comes a time when it is more difficult to stay than to leave, although that doesn't stop it from being a very sad occasion for me.  Work has been a home of sorts for me for many years.  My kids were toddlers when I started there!  And I really wish I didn't need to go.  


I'm a good worker, I've always considered myself a "worker bee".  Someone who has never been interested in climbing some ladder and who would wear garlic around my neck to guard against going into management.  NOT interested.  I wanted to learn my job, to grow and to move up within that framework, and be the best that I could be at it.  As long as I could support myself and be comfortable, life would be good.  But sometimes a company cannot leave well enough alone.  It makes me incredibly sad. 


Next week for 5 days I will not be working at my current or my new job.  It will be the first time in 25 years that I will not - technically - be working.  How weird is that?  Very, to me.


Oh and by the way?  Don't think I'm not terrified.  Yep.  Scared to death.


At this point it is all about putting one foot in front of the other and moving forward.  I'm putting on my big girl panties people, it's really about time.


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SO tired!!!

For some reason the pics disappeared from my last post. No idea why but I am too tired to go back and add them again.

I have been looking at other people's blogs and they are all so nice and fancy and slick! I have no idea how to do that! I'm lucky I can write and stick a few pictures on here. There are a lot of people whose blogs are really commercial - they interview other sellers and artists and what-not, and post pictures of their items. I might put something on here if I see something I like - but I doubt I will ever get so intricate.

I find that lately I am STILL not getting any jewelry made, I am on this computer from when I get up until I go to bed. Lately. I am reading the forums on Etsy, I am trying to design postcards and business cards and trying to figure out all the promotional stuff. Today I finally gave in. After trying to print my own business cards and never being able to actually line them up properly - I confess I have finally consulted someone who does it for a living. I give!

This is my first try, kind of simple, not a lot of frills, looks pretty good. But in talking to my daughter - well - seems it needs something. So - I went back to the drawing board. I think I have lost track of which one's are which now, I just know this one was the first.

I sit here and do this stuff until I am bleary eyed and have gotten nothing else done all weekend. Tomorrow I will check my email about the magnets and business cards I am ordering, make sure I haven't sold anything, but then it will have to be housework and laundry, etc.

I think this is the 2nd one - but I'm not sure. ------------>

I am so sleepy this could be a picture of one of my kids for all I know at this point!!

<------ This one is my fancy one - and that's being nice. I would probably say busy, gaudy, etc now. And since I really don't know what I'm doing - it takes me forever to get to the point where I can print it and sit back and look at it to decide whether or not I like it. No doubt about this one - all that work and I hate it!

This is the final copy of what I want. I think. I had better - cause I have made arrangements to have it printed as business cards and magnets!!

In the midst of all that I decided to try to make postcards to hang on various bulletin boards, etc. I made one - printed out a bunch only for my daughter to point out I had put a comma where there needed to be a period - in the web address no less, so I corrected it and printed more. Ugh. Too much.

I keep thinking I need to get all this stuff nailed down so I can settle down and just make jewelry. I feel like I have ideas going through my head all the time, I miss it, but there are other things I have to do. I want to make jewelry!!!

Going to bed now. Not that anybody else reads this - but sorry for the dizzy post. I always get to this late at night and I guess I'm lucky if it EVER makes any sense.

Nite!!

BetteJo